I want to help women get started online and to be successful myself. Why am I holding myself back from this?

I’ve been very involved with my family life for about the past 10 years which has been wonderful but now I am really feeling like I want more and I don’t want to wait another 10 years until my babies are 10.

After being very involved with my husbands children for the past 10 years and playing the perfect little super step-mom like I thought I should, I’m kinda over it. I spent my 20’s basically doing this and don’t get me wrong I loved it and was very happy to do it and I’m sure I’ll do the same thing for my own children because it’s my nature. However, I’m in my early 30’s now and I’ve worked very hard on my mindset around success, money, delegation and I’m into working smarter not harder and being very focused on what my key priorities are and making myself one of those higher key priorities.

My husband is able to financially support our family and I get to stay home with our family during the day. I do work my product based businesses Cuchini.com and AgeReverser.com from home and earn a decent amount from that for the hours that it requires for sure. But I want more! I want more me time to do whatever the fuck I want to do! I know that “This is what I signed up for” – being a mom…but really what the hell does that mean? There is no exact way to be a mom and to run your day – they’re aren’t two crystal clear categories for the type of mom you are – i.e. a mom that stays home or a mom that works outside the home and takes children to daycare/school.

 
It’s much more diverse than that because everyones situation is totally different! I’m a “Stay at home” mom in the sense that I don’t go to an office outside of my home but I’m an entrepreneur running 2 product based businesses and starting a service based online business as well! That’s a working mom if I’ve ever described one. PLUS ~ Being a stay at home mom without being an entrepreneur and running your kids lives and your household is a lot of work too!

 I know that my Mompreneur Cheerleader coaching business is my next step and will bring me back into the feelings of my old self very quickly. However, I feel very not ready, a lot of resistance, and that my life is in total chaos at the moment and that it all needs to be straightened out before I can seriously take on another business venture. Don’t feel like I have a good enough schedule that I follow, my house is a disaster and my cleaning lady just quit (I wanted to find someone new anyway so I guess I got what I wanted), my closet, my mail is everywhere in the house, the house in general needs more minor repairs like painting and de-cluttering, and I’m sure tons more oh yeah, my office is a nightmare, I don’t even want to go in there really! That makes getting any work done pretty tough. I need and want more babysitting help, so I guess I’m just going to have to buckle down and make a fucking decision already.

 
Am I taking my life back in 2016 and becoming the proactive, ass kicking, productive, momma that I want to be? ~ YES! ~ Then OK, this shit isn’t going to happen by accident – I have to MAKE IT HAPPEN! I have another family (mother, aunt and 2 daughters) that used to clean for me that I know I can bring back on. I’m hoping that I can have them alternate throughout the week to keep the house clean, organized, everything in its place, help out with the baby when I want it, and just help me with whatever I need.

 
I have to figure out how much that’s going to cost and what I can get done and what level of happiness their help brings to me and my family. I know that I can afford it ~ I just get scared when I think about that I’ll actually have to produce income if I bring on help….do you ever feel like that? Like maybe I’m not actually good enough to make money?

 
It’s a lot of pressure – put onto myself by nobody except myself….crazy, why do I put so much pressure on? Do you do that? I’m sure you do. That’s the nature of a creative person.

 
Kat and I spoke about making my MC biz simple and not to over think and over complicate (i.e. what is the path that I want a reader to follow) etc. so I’m working on just creating content each day and putting it and myself out there.

 
I know my website isn’t perfect. I know it doesn’t matter really though because I just need to share my message and offer my services…I also should decide on what those services actually are. 🙂

 
I have tons of ideas for e-courses and services that I can offer – offering services scares me because what if I don’t actually want to be a woman that has “calls” to be on at certain times during certain days?

 
I’ve never had to really keep a schedule for myself and my work especially since having a child which is an entirely different task then just making sure your own needs are taken care of.

 
I need to find reliable people that I can count on for help to make sure that these areas of my life can happen the way that I want them to.

 
Ok so my work for today ~

 
I’m creating my Mompreneur Cheerleader Facebook group ~ DONE!

 
I’m posting this blog to my site and to my Mompreneur Cheerleader Ashly Simpson Facebook Page and the new group! 🙂

 
I’m finishing up shipping my products to Amazon for the holidays!

 
What are you going to do today? 🙂

 
Thanks for reading ~ and please come join the new Mompreneur Cheerleader Accountability Facebook Group!

XOXO ~ Ashly